Tormod Colors

 Beingness Color:

 Color expression:


Straightforward movement, seeing the simplicity of things and moving/expressing self within and as that simplicity. Seeing/cutting straight through to the heart of things - bypassing any and all of what the mind conjects and conjures up which tends to over-complicate things and makes things seem more complex than they really are. Not hearing, listening to or paying any heed to the mind's attempts to create 'more' out of what is simply here as reality.

A firm standing within oneself, feet planted firmly onto and within the ground. Very down-to-earth and grounded. Not easily swayed or influenced by the mind's tendency to create illusions, distortions and additions to reality. A clear grasp of what's real and a very 'no-nonsense' expression, movement and standing of oneself.


Mind polar opposite:

The point would then be to essentially get lost into all sorts of mind programmings - like doubt, uncertainty, lingering, then judgment, blame, etcetera - to get sidetracked from the actual 'heart of things' , from what's real and what matters which is for instance to just physically move yourself and do the garden work - from the simplicity of reality as physical movement

sS essentially it looks like your mind polar opposite is to go into 'complexity' of and as the mind, as your beingness expression is in fact the reverse of that as simplicity.

I mean with you having schizophrenia as having multiple 'minds' it's like you are living the epitome of complexity in and as the mind.


External support:  living room cupboard (how I direct the things inside me)

 Support Color:

 Color Expression:

The depth of the ocean where everything is silent and still within and as the eternal stillness of self. The awareness and understanding that life is birthed from that stillness and that self must first return to that stillness. Realizing that self-expression exists within and as the stillness of self and that stillness is cultivated and developed through physical labor - being more in the body than in the mind.

External support: Dining room table (my self-stability)

Color you're living now:

Diving into the depths of self. Working/moving on a deep level of oneself. Getting into what's real and directing things on a real level. 'Self emerging from the depths'. Getting down to the real matter of things. No more lies, no more illusions, no more excuses, only real self-honesty.

It's like a beingness within my very stomach. Depth - like I sacrifice something in it. I give my life for a cause.

Te color tested out for you because it's sommething you're not seeing/recognizing of yourself, so it's about just recognizing it and in a way accepting it.

Almost like, your mind isn't actually even real. You just need to sort of embrace who you really are more and step out of this perception of yourself as being somehow 'fucked'. Like, you're actually already here.

New Expression Color:

An acceptance of what is here. 'business as usual'. Not a 'big deal'. Nothing to react to or make a fuss about. All is quiet. All is silent. There is 'nothing'. No excitement. "Everything's finally quiet."

It feels almost like a sigh of relief, like "aahh finally everything is just quiet", "now I can finally think".

Also the 'no excitement' point is in relation to thoughts. Thoughts create the experience that things are 'happening', which creates that 'complexity' that you tend to lose yourself in. With this color there is nothing 'happening', no excitement, nothing special. It's 'bland' in a way. Meaning there is nothing special or exciting about it. Nothing to stir any reactions. It's like the color of the walls, it's just kind of 'here' and nothing more.

This color tested out for you as a point of support, so with this color as a 'new expression' it's to just kind of practice being 'quiet' and 'silent'.